The Way Back

It brought tears to my eyes when the hospital staff clapped my Dad’s discharge from hospital.  My Mum and I clung onto each side of the wheelchair as the porter wheeled Dad out. As we neared our house, all of our friends and neighbours had turned out to welcome Dad back, cheering our return.

It was a moment that Mum and I didn’t think would happen.  The last two months were our private nightmares, each of us afraid to answer the phone, expecting the worst.  But now, finally my Dad had come home. 

Mum and I would never forgive ourselves, blaming his symptoms on man flu.  It was Dad himself who had phoned the doctor in the end.  I was surprised they even had his medical records, I don’t ever recall him seeing the Doctor.  The ambulance had been at the door within twenty minutes.  They took dad off leaving the two of us bewildered on the doorstep.  I didn’t see my Dad again for twelve long weeks.

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Long Winding Road

Symptoms. Appointments. Tests. Diagnoses. Differential diagnoses. Treatments. Drugs. Drugs to counteract the effects of earlier drugs. Surgery? No surgery. And finally, a rejection of a medicalized interpretation and an emphatic setting aside of drugs, treatments and advice.

What I really need is fresh air, gorgeous surroundings and free space to ramble about in. Derbyshire maybe. Or the Lakes.

Yes, I can see the benefit of a complete change, but what if something bad happens and you take a turn for the worse? I mean, will you even be able to walk in all that free space?

I’d rather take a turn for the worse somewhere beautiful. Please, just load the tent and stuff in the car and let’s go.

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Wind Street Waltz 2054

Punting down Wind Street, Jess’s thoughts turned to the Wales On-Line  headline  2nd August 2020,-“The areas of Wales set to be underwater in 30 years due to climate change” 

“WAY too long.  My choice:-  Climate Catastrophe;-Wet Wales Underwater in 30  and include a virtual reality video.  But out by 4 years only, –  pretty good.”

Back then aged  23,  it was the imminent re-assignment surgery rather than a career in politics which excited the trainee multi-media reporter.

“Or floated my boat!”

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Where the Wild Things Are

It was the elders visiting for the third time this week that alerted me. The elders and the whispered words that blew across the yard, chilling my spine. “Ten cows.” “Wedding.” “Kutairi” (the cutting).

No-one speaks of my big sister, Amidah. But I remember. I remember the fifty-year-old man to whom she was promised, for a dowry of nine cows. The Ngarida (cutter). The rusty blade. The way they held her down and told her not to scream. The blood spreading over her white dress.

And afterwards, how her body was thrown into the Bush, where the wild things are. My beautiful sister. Fourteen years old to my seven. To escape the Lawalawa curse, there was to be no burial. No mention of her name.

I stopped speaking.

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Home Again

After a long journey by train, standing on the platform, looking up into the blue

sky, I decided to walk to the farm. A bit of a trek but I was wanting to tune back into the countryside, the winding lane and all its treasures.

Hedges bristling with new growth, smelling wonderful after years of living in the city. Breezes gently caressing my face, a smile appeared, my shoulders dropped, all tensions fading away. Birds chirping as they flitted about in their endless search for insects, animals grazing in the meadows bleating and lowing.

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Closed

           

They closed the bridge on the Welsh side. Drivers already on the bridge going westwards beat furiously on the dashboards of their halted vehicles in the hot midday sun, then tuned-in to Radio Wales to discover that ‘the virus’ was the reason. ‘It’s coming from the east,’ a politician said, too diplomatic to blame ‘England’. ‘We’re not letting it into Wales.’ The three lanes east were now empty; all traffic from Wales had ceased.

            At the far end of the bridge traffic police made vehicles reverse into England, the outside lane first. After a long boiling hour, the middle lane began to go backwards and then stopped. Each driver tuned into English radio stations to hear a politician with a plummy voice say that due to the ‘prevalence’ of the virus in Wales, the Prime Minister had closed the bridge in ‘both directions’.

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And in the end

When Jack was a kid, his family drove from their home in Dade County to his grandparents’ farm in Seminole County. This meant three small boys sitting in the back of a 55-Chevy for over three-hundred miles. It was a long, miserable trip: seven or eight hours of brothers’ elbows, mother’s scolding and potholes testing the suspension.

Colquitt was the last town they went through, and there they would stop to get refreshments. They sat for half an hour in the shade of the Tower Hotel on North Main Street, mama sipping her peach tea, the others ice-cream sodas.

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